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I will carry with me always, the love I saw in "my Apples'" eyes...Patricia Burlin Kennedy

This memorial website was created to remember our dearest Apples on December 6, 1994 and passed away on October 21, 2010. You will live forever in our memories and hearts.

Dear little Apples

Your life changed on June 6, 2005 when angel doggie Keelee (1995-2008) and I rescued you after 10 1/2 years of neglect.  And on that day, our lives changed too.  You became part of our family - learning how to live the life of a doggie.  Thank you for 5 1/2 years of love and trust - and for gracing our lives with your presence.  You experienced so many new things - love, companionship, warmth, a loving home, a canine friend in Keelee, baths, walks, good food and a loving family.  You had some hard times too - mastitis and a pyometra spay from all those years of being outdoors on your own - but you beat them! 


We lost Keelee to the brain tumor on 5/22/2008 and your best friend was gone forever.  We mourned her loss together and you started to grow old.  But then little Neeli came into our lives as an 8 week old puppy in October 2008 - she brought the spunk back to you and your eyes sparkled.  Just as Keelee had taught you, you became Neeli's teacher and best friend.  Sure she pestered you - pulling your tail, tooting her woobies in your ear, stealing your chewbones and barking at you - but you knew that in time she would mature and you would be companions. 


In May 2009 the mammary tumors appeared - diagnosis - malignant cancer.  We knew that our time together would be limited - but by the grace of God, you fought to live until October 21, 2010.  Our last days and hours were spent together - laughing, crying, kissing, hugging and playing together with Neeli.


Neeli, Mommy, Dad & I miss you, little Apples.  The house is empty without you.  Your smile and shining eyes could light up the sky - but they were extinguished at 8:40 p.m. at U of P when we gave you peace.


To paraphrase Dr Ralph of the RI SPCA on the passing of his doggie Marvin, when your heart took its last beat last, it broke mine...


Run free sweet Apples - free from pain & suffering...


I love you & miss you - my beloved little rescue doggie.  I especially miss walking into the kitchen and seeing you cock your head and smile at me...


Love always,

Nadine, Mommy, Dad


Soft woofs & quiet woobies

Missing you, my older K9 sister - Love, Neeli


My Apples' letter to me:

Dear Mommy
Thank you for providing me with the best mommy, doggie sisters and home a rescue doggie could ever have!  My life changed on June 6, 2005 when you and angel doggie Keelee brought me home.  I was so scared that night because it was thundering and I'd never been allowed to sleep on carpeting in the house.  From that moment on, I knew that at age 10 1/2, I had finally found my forever family.
Keelee taught me all the doggie stuff - playing with toys, eating good food, having water available at all times, going for walks, baths and provided me with so much companionship and leadership.
You, Mommy, provided me with all the love that a doggie could ever dream of.  You trusted me from the moment I walked into my new home.  You provided me with a soft bed, my own food and water bowls, and a space in your heart where I could cuddle near you and just watch you with my adoring eyes. 
I experienced so many good times - and some scary ones like my first vet visit suffering from mastitis after just coming home and the pyometra spay.  I remember how you came to the hospital to visit me for 3 days - bringing me baby food (the only thing I'd eat after surgery) and how you bought the liquid form of medicine to help me get better.  Keelee, you and I would go for walks daily, we'd be brushed and combed, and most importantly, we'd be petted by you every night before going to sleep.  You'd lay between both of us, talking to us and kissing us! 
And then March 2008 came with Keelee stumbling down the stairs.  You were so worried and took her to the vet so many times, until the diagnosis of a brain tumor was given on April 23, 2008.  I sensed something was wrong with my sister - I'd watch her pace around at night, not being able to find a spot to sleep.  I'd see you crying as you would sit between both of us - petting and loving us.  And I remember that early morning of May 22, 2008 - the moment when I was afraid to go downstairs with you and Keelee.  I knew it was time to say goodbye - and I was afraid.  You came home later that morning, crying - and you sat next to me - petting me, telling me that Keelee was gone forever.  I mourned for my sister - I lost my best friend, my teacher.  It was lonely going for walks without her.  I would try to stay close to you - and we became even closer.
The summer of 2008 was upon us, and I was growing older - I was over 13 1/2 years old and the years of neglect were starting to catch up.  I started to fall down on occasion, and started to slow down.  You asked me if I would be willing to teach a puppy the same lessons that Keelee taught me.  Little 8 week old Neeli came home on October 8, 2008 (actually I should say a tornado arrived!).  Wow, was she an active puppy!  She pulled my tail, she tooted her woobies in my ears, she even would steal my food!  But I felt more alive and I loved her - and I started to teach her the ways of a doggie like Keelee taught me.  We became close as sisters - I was so proud when she graduated from school.  We would go for walks - the 3 of us - except now Neeli was in the lead, and I was walking slower.
You were petting me in May 2009, when you discovered a lump near my teats.  We went to the vet, and the news was not good - malignant mammary tumor.  I was almost 14 1/2 years old, and surgery was not an option.  We lived each day as fully as possible.  The tumor grew, and others popped up too.  I started to struggle to get up, and you were always there to give me a boost up.  You'd help me up and down the stairs and provided me with foam mattresses so my body could lay on something soft.  We experienced 75+ inches of snow during the winter 2009-2010 - you'd put my coat on and little socks so I could go for short walks.  The spring of 2010 was upon us, and I started to struggle more.  But you were there to help me always - water close to me, short walks every 2-3 hours and so much loving and petting!  The summer was almost the hottest ever, and I was in the house - air conditioning non-stop.  As the fall season came upon us, I started to struggle more.  You carried me down the stairs each morning and outdoors.  You'd then boost me up the steps to be in the kitchen.  The bleeding was more frequent.  You changed my bedding daily.  I couldn't go for a walk around the block anymore - just in front of the house. 
On October 17, 2010, I couldn't walk anymore.  You helped to hold me up while I did business.  I saw the sadness and despair in your eyes - I knew you were afraid to let me go.  You'd look at my shining eyes, and you'd lay next to me and cry.  I would nuzzle next to you - loving the feel of your soft hand as you'd run your fingers through my hair.  Neeli would sit nearby - I know she sensed the end was near.  You promised me that you'd never let me go on a rainy day and that I'd see the sun - and you kept your word.  On October 21, 2010, you were with me at the hospital - right next to me - I watched you cry - and tried to tell you that it was all right - that it was you who had the most difficult decision to make - that it was time to let me go - that I'd be joining Keelee at the Bridge.  I felt your arms around me as I took my final breath at 8:40 p.m.
Dear Mommy - you were the love of my life - my heart and soul person!  Thank you for rescuing me - for loving me - for taking care of me.  I will carry with me always, the love I saw in your eyes.  Together with Keelee, I will keep watch over you and Neeli every day.  I love you Mommy.
Love always,


I Remember
I stood by your bed last night, I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying. You found it hard to sleep.

I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear,
"It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."

I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea,
You were thinking of the many times your hands reached down to me.

I was with you at the shops today. Your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.

I was with you at my grave today, You tend it with such care.
I want to re-assure you, that I'm not lying there.

I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my paw on you, I smiled and said "It's me."

You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know, that I was standing there.

It's possible for me to be so near you everyday.
To say to you with certainty, "I never went away."

You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew...
in the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.

The day is over... I smile and watch you yawning
and say "Good-night, God bless, I'll see you in the morning."

And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide,
I'll rush across to greet you and we'll stand, side by side.

I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out... then come home to be with me.

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